This picture that I captured depicts an example of nature's pure beauty. The complexities of this web are eerily similar to the perplexities encountered within the lives of the addicted.
The affliction of addiction leaves one believing that the beautiful distorted canvas of life that is being created is "all good"- leaving one unable to discern that each mind-altered decision, each flailing movement, is engendering an inextricable stream of life's entanglements-leaving its' victim ensnared within a web of self-deceit and self-destruction.
A self-created web that the addicted finds one's self unable to navigate- during periods of sobriety-nor during the far too frequent altered states of euphoria.
...is the place that I reached just prior to being "FILLED"(next week's episode). Just as the rising sun is captured breaking its' way through the trees and is beginning to illuminate the intricacies of the beauty of the spider web-my realization and acceptance of WHAT I had become, and WHO I was, due to my addiction was being revealed. Inexplicably, at that specific point and time, I had finally begun to see as I had never seen before. I now know that the source of the illuminating light was that of the SON. HIS intent-to expose the vast network of drug induced behaviors that were being meticulously woven in order to facilitate my ultimate demise.
Thankfully, GOD'S never-ending MERCY and GRACE carried me to the point where I was ready to accept WHOSE I am and to dispense of the selfish desires that were hindering me from becoming who I was intended to become. A vessel created to encounter those anonymous individuals who are on the shore cheering me on so that I can positively impact them along their life's journey- in order that they can begin and successfully fulfill their assignment(s).
WE ARE ALL PART OF THE COLLECTIVE BODY!!!
***That spider web was there SPECIFICALLY for me in order that the contents of this long ago written episode, never before revealed to the public, could assist that ONE listener in confronting the presenting obstacles along their life's journey...HALLELUJAH!!!
Our Spirit Lives!!!